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I took on this project on a whim. Shit happens when I open my big mouth.
My dear friend Lucy, was having problems with her shoot. Thought I drop
by spell#7 office since on a previous occasion I've told Ben I was
willing to lend a hand. That's when it start to stink. One thing let to
another and I got the 3 to 4am slot. It was a mistake, I had no money in
my pocket nor in the bank and tons of bills to pay including those
accompanied by solicitor notices. Damn it. After a few calls to borrow
some equipments and help, I decided that there won't be a better
time to fail. And fail I did. In her poetry tribute to her fellow poet
Mayakovsky, Anna Akhmaktova wrote the following
lines......................
And the hum of the rising tide of response
Was audible as you read to us.
Rain slanted its eyes wrathfully,
You quarreled violently with the city.
You quarreled violently with the city. The same could be said of Joyce's
Dublin or Derek Jarman when he shot The Last of England. I can only
leave it to the reader to read into the ideas behind this endeavour of
trying to portray a life of a city in a day. That I am a great walker I
know, in France someone like this would be called a flaneur. In
Singapore, someone like this could not exist because any territory that
you happen to step on outside the boundaries of your own 'house' is
either a private property or state property hence even on the move one
is nothing but a loiterer. Stray cats examplified this more by
territorial pissing. I don't have a quarrel with my city. I want to woo
her against efforts that try to erase her stories. But she is estranged.
Most felt around Shenton Way, the 'brainland' of the city, the financial
center. On weekends, having regurgitate its occupiers, the buildings
which stood on days tall and proud began to doubt. You hear voices each
to each...... i'm tired. Streets are empty like open wounds. And there
I'll always be telling stories from different lands, poets, writers,
myths I read them aloud to sooth her. No kidding. Part of the film
contains this "in memory of Edward W. Said". I felt devastated on
hearing of his passing. If it felt pretentious, no apologies though I
would have still do it without the camera as an alibi. I know I have
failed but does she? To be continued.....
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